The Tragic Flaw - Inability To Change

I just love this so much... and it is so fitting for many of us.


"The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.

I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels better somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone...Except maybe yourself a little.

When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really, really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever...that you'll never have to change again." - Ephram Brown (Everwood TV Series Season 2)

Precocious Puberty - Update April 2012

My daughter had her appointment at the Joslin Center in Syracuse this past Tuesday and we have decided to discontinue her Supprelin implant.

She will keep the one in her arm for now until all of the medication is used up (they actually can last almost 2 years usually). The doctor is going to check her again in 9 months at which time we will probably schedule removal of the implant.
The Supprelin implant has been wonderful for her and has worked perfectly with absolutely no issues or concerns, but as a mother - I have always worried about the long term effects of the medication considering in 2008 when she got her first implant, it was a fairly new option. (approved on May 3, 2007 by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration). We would really like her to use the medication for the least amount of time necessary and her endocrinologist agrees. If absolutely necessary, we can always opt for a few Lupron injections to keep things at bay should things start to progress extremely quickly once the implant is empty.

I will follow up here after her next appointment in 9 months.

Edited 2023 -  I left this blog for a long long time.  After the 9 months passed - we took her to have the implant removed.  They were unable to easily locate it. The surgeon said if it were his daughter, he would leave it in rather than create a large area of scar tissue from digging around for it. It has been about 11 years since - and she has had no issues with it being there.  She did not start getting regular cycles until 16 years old.  I still have concerns about what long term affects there may be in areas of fertility, etc from the condition itself and from the method of treatment.  But, so far, everything seems good. 

100 More Songs You Heard as an 80's-90's Kid

I was going to do a Part II of the original post I posted yesterday (you can find in the archives) with the YouTube embeds but as I sat and thought about songs, the list just grew and grew.  So, I have decided to only list the titles and I hope at least one brings back lots of memories!  I tried to only use each artist once, so the song might not be your favorite.  ...Now hurry, run off to iTunes and download them all! 


1. Tupac - Changes
2. 311 - Transistor
3. Firehouse - Love of A Lifetime
4. Seal - Kiss From a Rose
5. Tracy Bonham - Mother, Mother
6. Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
7. Jamirquai - Virtual Insanity
8. Lou Bega - Mambo #5
9. Eminem - My Name Is
10. Dave Matthews Band - What Would You Say
11. Third Eye Blind - Jumper
12. Matchbox 20 - Push
13. Live - I alone
14. Tonic - If You Could Only See
15. Counting Crows - Round Here
16. Missy Elliott - Supa Dupa Fly 
17. Puff Daddy feat Faith Evans/112 - Missing You
18. Green Day - When I Come Around
19. LeAnn Rimes - Blue
20. Oasis - Champagne Supernova
21. Goo Goo Dolls - Slide
22. Madonna - Vogue
23. Orgy - Blue Monday
24. Reba McEntire - Fancy 
25. Blink 182 - All The Small Things
26. Alanis Morissette - Ironic
27. Monica - Don't Take It Personal
28. Brandy - Sittin' Up In My Room
29. Beastie Boys - Intergalactic 
30. Fuel - Sunburn
31. Fiona Apple - Criminal
32. Kid Rock - Bawitaba
33. Ben Folds Five - Brick
34. The Wallflowers - One Headlight
35. Hootie & The Blowfish - Only Wanna Be With You
36. Bush - Glycerine
37. Christina Aguilera - Genie In a Bottle
38. Puff Daddy/Mase - Can't Nobody Hold Me Down
39. Jewel - Pieces of You
40. Rob Zombie - Living Dead Girl
41. N*SYNC - Tearin' Up My Heart
42. 98 Degrees - I Do (Cherish You)
43. Boys 2 Men - Motownphilly
44. Garth Brooks - Friends In Low Places
45. Kenny Loggins - Danger Zone
46. Def Leppard - Pour Some Sugar On Me
47. Beach Boys - Kokomo 
48. Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting
49. Tone Loc - Wild Thing
50. New Kids On The Block - Step By Step
51. Guns n' Roses - Paradise City
52. Spice Girls - Wannabe
53. Meredith Brooks - Bitch
54. Shawn Colvin - Sunny Came Home
55. The Verve Pipe - Freshman
56. Celine Dion - It's All Coming Back To Me Now
57. Tag Team - Whoomp! There it is!
58. Eric Clapton - Tears in Heaven
59. Diana King - Shy Guy
60. Next - Too Close
61. INOJ - Love You Down
62. Chumbawumba - Tubthumping
63. Alannah Myles - Black Velvet
64. Tom Petty - Free Fallin'
65. Blackstreet - No Diggity
66. Sophie B Hawkins - As I Lay Me Down
67. Des'ree - You Gotta Be
68. Sara McLachlan - Adia
69. Usher - You Make Me Wanna
70. Sugar Ray - Every Morning
71. Brian McKnight - Back at One
72. Spin Doctors - Two Princes
73. Coolio - Gangsta's Paradise
74. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under The Bridge 
75. Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody
76. Snap - Rhythm is a Dancer
77. Crystal Waters - 100% Pure Love
78. Soul Asylum - Runaway Train
79. Right Said Fred - I'm Too Sexy
80. Savage Garden - I Want You
81. Melissa Etheridge - I'm The Only One
82. Robyn - Do You Know What It Takes
83. Soft Cell - Tainted Love
84. Olivia Newton John - Physical
85. Sir Mix-A-Lot - Baby Got Back
86. Pearl Jam - Last Kiss
87. Destiny's Child - Bills, Bills, Bills
88. Journey - Don't Stop Believin'
89. Metallica - One
90. Barenaked Ladies - If I Had A Million Dollars
91. Joan Jett - I Love Rock N' Roll
92. Whitesnake - Here I Go Again
93. House of Pain - Jump Around
94. Cyndi Lauper - Time After Time 
95. Billie Myers - Kiss The Rain
96. Bryan Adams - Summer of '69
97. Merril Bainbridge - Mouth 
98. Eryka Badu - On and On
99. Edwin McCain - I'll Be
100. Billy Ray Cyrus - Achy, Breaky Heart